Now i know who loves me the most and cares about me, without saying it and showing it before..

It's my Sister! Athirah!

i get along with her well.. its just different when she says it directly to me..

I never felt a love from a sister since i was small..

Until this day, 10th April 2008..

I'll never forget this day..

I felt i was someone..

This very day will change me to be someone better..

I'm a type of guy who's hot headed..

I usually joke around with her and sometimes we fight... thats usual...

Recently we cousin hang out together , going clubing and stuff..

Had fun together..

On the 10th April 2008,

We went club at Mos , my cousin Nas, Athirah and Me...

Honestly , i'm a drinker.. i bought a bottle that night..

Before nas came, Athirah and me had finish half a bottle and were feeling tipsy..

Nas came later with her friend .. Nas didn't drink..

Left the half empty bottle and went into mos...

In Mos...

My Sis was Drunk..

i had to take care of her...

Took her outside Coz she wanted to puke..

Seriously i was pissed off with her coz i wanted to dance..

My cousin and her friend was also helping out..

Brought her to the sidewalk, made her sit down, gave her some water..

she still acts like a fool... i told her to snap out of it... 

Told her to relax.. talk alot of crap.. still wouldn't work...

well i was really mad.. i was giving that angry look .. my cousin told me to relax..

i don't know what had gone into me, i slapped her hard on her right cheek..

She suddenly stood up and say, 'it hurts, how could u do this to me, your my only brother....'

i was surprise when she told me how much she loved me and all..  i still think she's drunk and saying it for the sake of saying at that point of time... 

When she was better, we brought her back in to dance it off...

i was with her throughout... We also took pictures together ..

When the party ended , she was already ok..

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She saw her bitch friends..

she wanted to go with them, told her to go home with me.. she was pissed.. i was pissed too..

Then...

went to 7-11 .. i bought red bull...

I paid for it and went out...

My sis was at the back.. came out with some stuff ... unpaid...

she was proud of stealing...

she was telling my cousin about it.. and my cousin was like wow..

but for me, when i was damn angry ...

i told my cousin to shut up and fuck off...

i told my sis if she behaves like this, she better don't regard me as her brother...

i didn't want to talk to her as my anger went super high... 

she said she stole it for fun ... i said i was disappointed with her..

she asked me y...

told her with anger... 'Ur a bitcH! i trusted u! thought u had change! i see bright future in you, yet u wanna do this nonsense..told her the consequences and family ....

She got upset and cried...

she threw away the stuff that she stole and walk off crying...

i chased her... she say she cant stand her only brother that she love most, called her a bitch......

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--- i fucking suck at explaining----

took a cab home with her... in the cab, she keeps on bragging on the part i called her bitch(crying).. told her to forget about it as i was angry then.. 

she stop crying and look me in the eyes and told me again, 'u are my only brother, i love u the most, not even abah and mummy...she says she's being stressed by my mom and dad, told her if she had problems she could always talk to me...... (she said more) fucking lots to elaborate... im too sleepy...

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when we were outside our home, she hugged me and said, ' sorry and i love u'....

i was really touch...

i cried...

she had to go school that morning...

i was still up...

she went to take her bath and get ready for school...

when she wanted to leave, she hugged me again...

i was really , really touch....

i don't know what to say...

its the first time we hugged, said sorry and share our emotion... 

i'm glad to have a sister like her!

'i love u!'

 

♥MuakZ♥Friday, April 11, 2008